I’ve spent thousands on self-investment. Coaching, therapy, training, all kinds of self development—things I knew would help me grow, and things I was genuinely curious about. I invested in myself because I wanted to move forwards, improve, grow, make sense of everything and not feel stuck.
I’ve dedicated hours in 1-1 sessions with professionals, deep-diving into my thoughts, my struggles, my past and my personal challenges. I’ve learned about my strengths and how to use them to my advantage.
It’s been a journey of digging deep. Asking the hard questions, taking steps back and no longer avoiding things that always kept creeping up on me no matter how far I would run. There have been times I’d turned for help, and didn't get it. It almost felt like I seeked help and it backfired. From that moment on, I knew there was one thing for sure, i was never asking for help again. Just to be misunderstood. Then I went for years going through it alone. Keeping it to myself. Thinking that was it and that i'd never get clarity…until enough was enough and it changed.
The work I’ve put in, behind closed doors, is something most people even closest to me don’t know about and something people don’t always see. It’s been a long, sometimes uncomfortable process, but it’s made me incredibly self-aware.
So, when someone tries to tell me about myself, or assumes they know what I’m like, I can’t help but think...little do they know how much I REALLY know myself. They have no idea how many hours I’ve spent reflecting, journaling, and working with experts to dig into my own mind. They don’t see the tough times, the uncomfortable truths I’ve had to face, the patterns I’ve had to break.
No one really knows the full story. And honestly, I’m so used to being misunderstood. It’s almost part of who I am now. But going on my own journey, no one else can ever fully see it. And I’m okay with that. I know who I am, and that feeling makes everything else fade away. It’s made me able to do what I do now—live life authentically, aligned with my values, and with the confidence to make decisions that feel right for me.
If there’s one takeaway you get from reading this…the truth is if you’re avoiding something, it’ll creep up on you and it’ll come back around no matter how hard you try to bury it. I’m lucky I even got to where I am now, after years thinking I had to do it alone.
If you get the opportunity to get clarity, understanding and a chance to move forwards don’t turn it down, there might be someone out there hoping they had the same. You might not get the chance again.
If you're ready to face it and truly start understanding yourself, reach out to me, it might be the conversation that changes everything.